I See Red
Oil on Canvas, Mixed Media
36 x 56 inches
This piece first began as a series of small doll still lifes, then later explored in large scale on a wood panel. Regardless of the scale or surface, the doll was always sitting naked with legs outstretched from side to side, but years later while sketching the same doll still life, I decided to take the piece in a different direction. It was during the process of sketching, re-sketching, and painting the piece that the narrative emerged—the doll became child-like and sexualized. The detached gaze was her only way of escaping since she could not run in high heels, nor did she have hands and arms with which to protect herself.
To see the evolution of this piece, go to the 7/11/11 and 5/1/11 post.
I will soon finish this piece entitled "I See Red". It has been in progress for longer than I would like to admit. Over the years, it has undergone numerous transformations – none of which ever felt right to me. Certainly, all were "acceptable", but I was not satisfied.
"I See Red" was first explored as a small scale oil painting doll still life, then later on a wood panel because I wanted a sturdy support. Not pleased with a sheen on its surface, which I was never able to eliminate, it was abandoned. Months later, it was restarted on canvas, and has been painted over, and restarted several times.
Finally in November of 2010, while quickly sketching the charcoal and pastel sketch above, I knew the direction I wanted to take this painting. I hope to finish it by the end of May. It is a mixed media piece, and has been since its conception. In fact, the mixed media element came first and the painting grew from that particular detail.