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Threes
A poem I wrote on 1/25/2020 Prone to elaborate rituals– a perfectly fastidious disease, she clasps her hands tightly, then whispers, "one, two, three". Bowing her head in deliberate silence; and crossing her mouth three times, she releases her petition upward with frankincense, pleas, and please please please.
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 Fragrant Smoke A year ago last autumn, on a day much like today I released him and into the ether, he went... his portrait—the one most like him, the one with the old tan hat. Among the golden fall leaves and flowers interwoven with bright scarlet thread and raffia, his arms and his torso, I reverently wrapped. I nestled his image, within a red paper boat. Then setting the leaves and sandalwood afire, his vessel, I set afloat onto the glistening river of this small town he always called “home”. Away into the current he traveled-- under the warmth of the fall summer sun. And as I watched in the distance, a patch of red, I could see I imagined, his spirit uplifted in spirals of fragrant smoke. Alas, after 40 years plus 7, I truly released him--but only, to the God whom he always knew. A poem I wrote today, 11/6/2021, a year and a day after my personal farewell. Thank you, Dr. S for accompanying me.
What Moon?
Four seasons past, we gazed at the same moon, the one that shines over the prairie and through my window here, tonight. Wish you could see it there, in the desert sky and know, as you did then, that distance matters not-- but no... So, I am left to wonder, what moon you smile upon this summer night. I watched Banaz A Love Story, and did so in horror, confusion, and sadness. I wondered to myself, "Where is the honor, in 'Honor Killing'?" If this isn’t a contradiction in terms, I don’t know what is! To say that I felt dis-ease is an understatement. While I understand that culture shapes our sense of self, religion, beliefs, etc., I cannot tolerate murdering someone because it is culturally acceptable for a family’s honor to take precedence over a life. Yet, I wonder how it is possible for "humans" who possess the capacity to love, get to the point where we see another human as a commodity—something of less or no value at all? How do we get there? What is it at our very core that grants us permission to proceed with such hate? At the age of 17, Banaz Mahmod was in an arranged marriage to a man she did not know previously and who was 10 years older than she was. He abused her in every way possible. Although she had left him on numerous occasions, her family sent her back each time because it was neccesary for their honor—it was preferable that she endure the abuse rather than they endure the shame. After 2 years of leaving her abuser and being sent back to him by her family, she left for the last time and returned to her family home. 7 months later, her father arranged for everyone in the family, with the exception of Banaz, to leave their home so that her cousins could enter specifically to kill her. But killing Banaz wasn't enough; in fact, for over 2 hours they raped and tortured her. They eventually strangled her to death, stuffed her body in a suitcase and buried her 6 feet underground. Her father, her uncle, and 3 cousins were later convicted of her murder—this was as much “justice” Banaz could get within a legal system after her death. Tragically, she had reached out to the police, but was unable to get the protection that she needed before her death. The quote below is from the film. It was something Banaz said as she spoke about the man she was forced to marry. "It was like I was his shoe and he would wear it." "Her "self"
Her “self”, at its nucleus is calm and courageous-- as it was at her birth, but life insisted on darkness; extinguished its brilliance to smoke, and shattered her “self” at its core. Each of the fragments needful, but in a space in time that no longer was, or is. Their voices, she silenced in ignorance, conflicted by their tantrums and pleas. 'Til one day the atomic rage ignited and the chatter spewed forth. Squeezing her heart and lungs fiercely, her parts demanded to be heard. She relented and listened summer through summer to their stories of anger and fear. And so it was in her own compassion, that she led her back to the "self" of her birth. In Silhouette
A glance at a photo, there-- in the place we called home. I imagined you in silhouette walking on our beach though not you, it is, there-- offshore in the deep at rest and waiting... Like a Mist
Touch that doesn’t feel your skin. Sight that doesn’t see your chocolate complexion-- instead, the ether like a mist where you are. If I listen, will you whisper the way, so I know where to go? she asked ‘you are in love, /souˈdädə/ /saʊˈdɑdə/ The following video was created by the very talented Jesse Arseneau. I appreciate his patience, hard work, and creativity in its production. |
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